Tuesday, August 8, 2017

For You ... A letter.


Dear You,

One thing leads to another. One month leads to another. And one year led to eighth. Times flies yet makes us realize that indeed it’s a complicated journey.

There are times I wonder, why you left so fast. Why you didn’t stay back to make more memories? You know what I miss about us the most? The opportunity to get to know each other better.

We were just acquaintances when we interrupted each other’s life with so much of power. But I would have loved to experience many phases of that. I wish we had the time to grow up together.

Some nights when sleep fails to embrace me, my thoughts sail to you. And suddenly a fear grips me.

What if I forget you one day?

What if I won’t be able to remember your face, the glint in your eyes or that smirk you have? 

What if, one day when I try to draw your face in my mind, I fail? 

What if the memories start to dribble out of my memory while I desperately try to hold them?

There are days and moments when I miss you so much that make me wonder how I kept going till date without you in your life. But that's how life turns out to be. You'll miss people who're important to you; you just have to live without souls whom you don't want to leave... You'll have to learn to survive without the presence of those whom you always wanted in your life.
But some days are gloomier than the rest and some nights darker than yesterdays. Some moments lonelier than the previous...  And I just miss you so much at this moment than the rest, especially when today marks the eighth year of your leaving.  

I wish ...

… If only, one day I would wake up from a deep slumber and realize all these years were just dreams, very bad dreams …


… Just a wishful thinking …



Me.



P.S. Today is the eighth year of demise of a dear soul, M. Over the years I have written so many letters to him in the space and otherwise. Even when we, his friends and family miss him dearly, we all are so grateful for his presence in our family. 





                                I am taking part in The Write Tribe Festival of Words #6







40 comments :

  1. I can understand this letter, having written kind of a similar one myself.

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  2. I am sorry for your loss. I can feel the pain behind your words. Specially the parts where you fear not remembering his face. Fate can be cruel sometimes. Love and hugs to you.

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    1. Yeah... at times fate can be cruel.
      Thank you so much Raj. Hugs.

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  3. I realize that he means a lot in your life. As you mentioned, sometimes, we have to learn to survive without our loved ones presence.

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    1. We just adapt and move forward. Thank you Ramya.

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  4. I've been learning to let go of the what ifs and just try to enjoy each moment I'm in but, it's not always easy I know.

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    1. Enjoy the moment is important. Thank you so much.

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  5. A big hug to you. I'm sure he's reading your letters from wherever he is. Keep writing. 👍

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  6. A big hug to you, Sheethal and so sorry for your loss!

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  7. Dear Sheethal losing a loved one is devastating, a gaping hole remains in the heart although we say time heals every pain. I feel that hole till date though its been 3 years I lost my grand father.

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    1. I am so sorry for your loss too. Thou time may not heal, it reduces the stink of pain.

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  8. Touching one... some thing are precious and loosing those prematurely is a big loss! Time cant heal but agony prevails where it is hurt.
    -Anagha from Team Mocktailmommies
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  9. Your pain comes through in your words, Sheethal! I hope and wish that time heals your heart! It is not easy though!

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  10. The ones we love, live on inside us. Their love and goodness forever keeping our heart warm.
    So sorry for your loss dear.

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  11. Sometimes we prefer reality to be just a bad dream. I knkw that's how life plays with us. Sorry for your loss

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  12. Shared sentiments Sheethal! I have gone through all of this and more over a person who is no more; but he is still ever so special and dear. My fear is also what if I forget him!! Very well emoted my friend! Big hugs to you!

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    1. More than the pain losing them, it's the fear of what if we forget them torments us more. Hugs & love to you Shalini.

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  13. I can still feel the sorrow of the parting...of the loss. It's so palpable in your words. Sending you hugs.

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  14. This was painful reading .I wish to not think of such thoughts .The poem is lovely but sooo sad!

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  15. A touching letter, Sheethal. I'm saddened by your loss. Hugs!

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  16. So much love and longing in this letter. Well written.

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  17. Feeling the pain of loss. May his memories be with you forever, Sheethal !!!

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  18. Losing a dear one is never easy and takes a long time for the heart to heal...the laughter and memory. Got a friend who passed away 11 years back. I still feel that he alive though and wanna the memories be forever alive. Trust me, the person is looking at you from the sky and stars.

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    1. I do believe that, he's up there looking from the stars...

      Thank you Vishal :)

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  19. Losing someone dear leaves mark in one's life. One can never forget what happened and no one else can fill the loss but pain reduces over time. I am sorry for your loss. It was truly a heartfelt post.

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  20. That was such a heartbreaking letter and so from the heart. So very sorry for your loss. The going away of some people from our lives, leaves a space that is difficult to fill.

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    1. That's true. A permanent void is there always, yet we learnt o live with it.

      Thank you so much for your words Tulika.

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